Am I Willing?
I heard Deepak Chopra speak in Kingston, Ontario, the other evening. I had won the tickets for me and a cherished friend. And I won more than the tickets! I manifested a superb experience of mySelf, in mySelf.
I had seen Deepak Chopra more than 20 years ago in Ottawa on a Sunday afternoon; it was a much smaller venue than Kingston. The night before this most recent presentation, a friend in California had asked me about my experience of mySelf in his presence, more than 20 years ago. I answered that my experience of mySelf was of the intensity of his gaze, like he was looking right into me…his eyes a portal to something unseen and unknowable. He was younger man, then; it was as if I could see into the depths of his soul… and I experienced what I called a sense of the humble in him, a profound humility in his presence.
So, here I was, the other evening and almost 25 years later, wondering if I would get to have such an experience of mySelf, again, of his eyes, as the portal to something.. the unknowable. So long ago, in a much smaller venue, I had created the opportunity for mySelf to stand right in front of his eyes, to say thanks to the essence of him, for what he was willing to share that was so meaningful to me. I was not to get that close, this time.
It didn’t matter. Even from a distance, I could see the light of him in his eyes… and, beyond that, I could see into the depths of his soul. The humility remains and it seems, to me, to have grown.
So is this really about Deepak Chopra? No. It is all about me. It is all about all of us.
Am I willing to look into my own eyes, beyond the quantum biological processor that is my body and that holds my eyes, to really see who I AM? When I do, am I willing to own my own sense of the humble, as the force of awe and great divinity that I AM? Am I willing to be fully present to the essence of the I AM that I AM, which invites my very tissue to re-create and to morph in the blink of an eye, in full support of my life?
Am I willing to become even more reverent of my spirit and of my body as the conduit for the expression of Me, the unknowable? AM I willing to see mySelf emerging, as whom I am becoming? Am I willing to have it all be a constant truth in my experience of mySelf, breath to breath to breath? Am I willing to be mesmerized by the genius of whom I AM and of whom we all are? And, as Deepak Chopra, expressed, so simply and so eloquently, when he arrived to the stage the other night – so authentically himSelf – that healing and holy mean one and the same thing, am I willing to know and to own mySelf as holy, as whole, as the ONE in my own life?
Am I willing to live with undeniable RIG {respect, integrity and generosity of spirit} for mySelf and for you?
Am I willing to know that I AM extraordinary? AM I willing to see and to know, in my very cells, that you are, too? Am I willing to know mySelf and to live as a GodForce and to hold you as one, too… fully honouring that you and I may never, ever agree? Am I willing to hold mySelf and you, not as reflections of some external god, but as uniquely and internally, God, ourSelves? Am I willing to really grok that?
Am I willing?
I AM.
Posted: June 19th, 2011 under Uncategorized.